Letting go of anger...

I have been holding on to anger for the last two years, and today was the day I finally let it go.

I look at my life, the life I have built since I've been here, the relationships and friends I have made, and this has been a barrier to my friends and family, a wall around the person I would be, should be, and somewhere inside, really am. I look at my own distrust, my fear of getting close and letting others hurt me, my vulnerability, and have been pretty disgusted that among the people I have met in Charlotte, I've seemed to be the one with the chip on my shoulder. Among friends in the past, I have been called the strongest one, the stable one, yet the last two years I have been weak in my fear, and for that, the next person I find I need to forgive is myself. This will not come overnight, but I hope in the weeks to come, the decisions I made today will manifest themselves positively in myself and how I deal with the people around me.